Even though I haven't been faithful during this time, worrying too much about whether the efforts of my hands (and brain) will pay off, I'm grateful for a faithful God. His hand has truly been with me all these while. Thanks God!

Sigh damn. There's this nagging headache now that I've just taken a nap that lasted 3 hours. Guess I shouldn't have slept. But well I really needed it... =(

BTW, long entry for obvious reasons. I haven't been blogging for some time.

I've gotten back most of my results for the prelims and they aren't spectacular. It's quite scary actually, if these results are gonna reflect my actual score. I still failed my chem (horror of horrors) and most probably I'll fail my econs (haven't gotten it back yet). Good news is that I jumped 2 grades for bio, from S to C and for maths, I jumped 4 grades from U to B. Gotta thank God for the miracle. hahaha. Haven't gotten back GP either, but I'm hoping for either B or A (=x). It'll be an even bigger miracle if I can jump from U to A for chem. haha. For the A levels.

After school today I studied for awhile at the library before meeting Ashton at Causeway Point cuz he was in the area. It's nice to see him again after more than a year. He has emo hair now and is much more fun to talk to. Not that he wasn't fun to talk to before, but suddenly it seemed like he was more comfortable talking to me. Went to Swensen's for ice cream and to have a short chat. I really like his hair, though I had a problem thinking if I was looking at him straight in the eye since his right eye is covered. haha! He paid for my ice cream even though I insisted that we go dutch. But I agreed to treat him next time. XD So happy that my primary school friend is now so cute. Better hope his girlfriend is nice to him and doesn't bully him. heh.

Yesterday, I rushed to Mt Alvernia hospital after school to visit my grandma. She just had an operation on her backbone cuz it was causing her discomfort. I don't know why, but I felt sad seeing her connected to so many tubes and all. She looked very frail even though she could still talk to me. Sigh. I guess the time spent taking care of her every Sunday while my parents and sisters went to church made me sort of closer to her, even if I didn't intend to be. So I sat beside her bed and tried to study but couldn't; was just feeling too damn emo about her. Against my better judgement I fell asleep for about 30 minutes. As expected, I woke up with a stiff neck. ahhhhh. She gave me her curry puff that the hospital provided as a snack cuz she couldn't eat hard food (lol is the nurse stupid? =x). Hospital food really sucks. -.-

Met Xavier to study chem with (what's her name again?) at Bishan library later. grr shouldn't have sat beside him. Keep moving my arm for "inspection" of anatomy. Wanted to make me point my middle finger too. RAWR. ohwell. At least I got my mind off my grandma. Thanks for tutoring me. haha. I don't want to disappoint you again really, especially for chem.

My days were spent mugging of late, at Woodlands library with HY and Jasline. They've been such invaluable sources of knowledge and if it weren't for them, I wouldn't have been able to do this much better for my maths. Thank God for them.    ^ ^ Hopefully we can tide through the A levels together and celebrate together when the results are out! So HY if you're reading this, please don't let your results from your prelims discourage you, cuz you know you are much better than the results you currently have. And rmb to trust God always. (:

I wish I could do more for you but I guess to some point I don't know what to do. I think you'll study better at your school with your friends (cuz they definitely know much more than I do) plus well... it's conducive for you right? haha. Finding places near your school or mine to study is quite a headache since I can't really take noisy places. Guess it's better if we study separately for our A levels, cuz like what you said, we always meet to study and that's quite sad. I want to just go out and have fun with you for once. Maybe I should draw up a list. hahaha. If there's anything I look forward to, it'll be having fun after the A levels with you. (:

I found out that someone has been hacking my blogger account, someone from my class. Gah I'm pissed but what can I do? I don't have concrete evidence, except that he knows I have an LJ account from my blogger account. He couldn't have found out about it from other sources because I posted it for my friends after I locked my blog on blogspot. Time to change password. ohwell. Can't help it that my NRIC is so easy to rmb. LOL.

Off I go now~ More mugging awaits. hurhur. Hoping to see the rainbow after the rain!

note to self: I need to stop speaking Singlish cuz I'm starting to irritate myself.

RAWR RAWR.

IT'S FREAKING 1.50AM AND I'M NOT SLEEPING. But it's a happy day today. heh.

1) School ended at 12noon today! Not that it mattered though, cuz I promised meng hwee i'll stay for night study. But i got to study alot lar.

2) I wasn't anti social today! Not that I am, but I talked to the girls in class! I talked to Changyong whom I haven't talked to in ages! An improvement hurhur.

3) SUPPER DURING NIGHT STUDY WAS AWESOME. I ate a plate of spaghetti, a sausage, a sushi roll and a muffin with cream cheese. Washed it down with milo. Quite funny to see menghwee go, "damn, why are you still so small?!" OH, AND THE FOOD WAS FREE. <333 the parents support group. The food rocks. I bounced back to the library and the song in my head was the tune from the mac ad so long ago.
"yummy yummy yummy i've got food in my tummy... (I forgot the rest)"

4) Chionged with Changyong and Yahui to get food. Ate with the class. yay. (:

5) Talked to Natoon on the train back. Heh I tried speaking to him in Chinese and I felt damn weird. But it was fun talking to him.

6) Talking to andre on msn now. Quite fun, talking to someone who has known me for relatively long on msn for a change.

7) IT'S SATURDAY TMR. nuff said. XD (I mean today)

8) SOMEONE said that he will jio me if I got into medicine fac in uni next year. RAWR you elitist! XD

9) I got it off my chest by confiding in someone that i like you.

Ever wonder if the person you were with could be having a better time elsewhere if he wasn't stuck with you?

This thought has bugged me for quite some time. I wonder if I should stop being selfish for wanting to be with anybody at all, unless the person really says so. After a certain incident last year, I doubt things will ever be the same again. My mentality changed the night I stayed up and cried and cried, refusing to talk to anyone about anything, wishing I never existed at all. I don't care about my feelings anymore, because I just want those I love to be happy. Even if I should hurt myself, I'll still do it. Gah cliches.

Times when I feel unloved, it's comforting to know at least someone up there cares. Thanks, God.

The Ksp bashing session today was fun. Thanks for spending your time with me to study. (:

My grandfather passed away peacefully at around 2am this morning. Thanks for the prayers.

"Fight me!" She demanded, clutching her wooden practice sword harder than ever. Her eyes screamed defiance and she exuded an aura of bloodlust.

 The leaves of the forest trees rustled in the background, dust swirled around her feet. The sage smiled, his eyes twinkling beneath his bushy eyebrows. "You've lost, my dear. Your fear is paralyzing you, yet your pride refuses to acknowledge your inadequacy. You're afraid. Look, your arms are trembling and your eyes; they barely even disguise your fear! Come again another day. You've lost."

As he turned his back to return to his hut, the girl dropped her sword and collapsed on her knees. True enough, she was sweating profusely, eyes now wild with fear. The sage was much more than what she had expected him to be.

"I've lost," she mumbled.

I've lost.

I've grown much closer to my dog ever since my elder sister had to work during my June Holidays. He's my mugging partner and he helps me to alleviate my stress. I use him as my footrest since he's so furry and nice to step on! XDD But yeah I love my dog.

It was raining cats and dogs today (no pun intended) and Romie kept barking and barking. I was already nursing a very bad headache due to the sudden bad bout of flu. Haha times when I feel like killing that lump of fur. Thunder accompanied flashes of lightning and well, I'm not exactly immune to sudden loud noises. And I am afraid of thunder. It sounds like a bomb attack. At least that's what I think a bomb attack would sound like.

I find it surprising how I would want to protect Romie even when I was afraid of the thunder and lightning myself. I took his basket and placed it on my mattress so that I could cover him with my blanket. Maybe it was to make him shut up, maybe it was so I could hide under the blanket without him trying to uncover me. It's amazing how having something to protect would make you forget about wanting to be protected yourself.

Bio exam in exactly 1 week's time! Followed by Maths and Chem. Well well life's good. GG for mid years.

Dynamic Thinker (DT)

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Dynamic Thinkers are confident and independent persons. They radiate enthusiasm and energy. Dynamic Thinkers pursue their objectives actively and energetically. They love nothing better than new challenges. This type is the born leader, competent, energetic and responsible. They have a sharp eye for errors and can criticise without mercy if they see the success of a project endangered. They are completely unconcerned as to whether they alienate anyone in the process. But they are always open to objective arguments; they love discussions, they are very gifted rhetorically and they are good at convincing and enthusing others.

As they are very sociable, Dynamic Thinkers like to have a lot of friends around them, preferably those with whom they can share their interests and discuss all sorts of subjects. They are very direct but never in an underhand or scheming manner. If you can bear being spoken to frankly, you have in them a loyal and unwavering advisor as friend. Everything new and unknown stimulates Dynamic Thinkers and awakens their curiosity. However, rules, routine and traditional things arouse their resistance. If something does not go the way they want it to, they can react rather pigheadedly and obstinately.

Dynamic Thinkers expect a great deal of themselves and of others. Whoever does not fit in with their scheme of things does not have it easy. They sometimes appear to be rather severe due to their frankness. Partners and family also find it difficult to satisfy Dynamic Thinkers. They know exactly what they want and compromising is inconceivable to them. Whoever has an Dynamic Thinker as partner should have a strong personality and have a great deal of independence and sufficient self-confidence in order to give this dominating type some opposition. Normally, for Dynamic Thinkers, a partnership only takes second place after their profession. But they like to have someone at their side who is a match for them intellectually, with whom they can pursue mutual objectives and have interesting discussions all night long; preferably factual discussions - sentimentalism and romance are not their thing.


hey i do have a thing for romance okay. other than that i pretty much agree with the other stuff.

What the hell is this world coming to.

1) WHERE IS LOVE.

2) Computer caught fire. NYAA report inside.

Libera Me. God, hear our prayers.

I don't know what is wrong with me.

I just completed an anime series and it made me cry. I watched Windstruck last week and it made me cry too. Ironically, the anime wasn't a shoujo one. It was a shounen anime involving loads of Mecha! Tengen Toppen Gurren Lagann is one hell of a roller coaster. It's gonna be my favourite anime series for a long long time.



This anime made me think a lot. It made me wonder what I would do in a leader's position, what it meant to dream, what it meant to be realistic, what it meant to simply fight without giving up for what you truly believe in. Indeed, sometimes that one percent is equivalent to a hundred percent. Sometimes calculated risks aren't the best way to go. Time to crush reason onto the curb and do the impossible. RAWR RAWR FIGHT THE POWER.

Even from animes, there are lessons that can be gleaned from them. But of course not all of them are logical. =D

I'm certified damn high after the anime. I <3333 Simon, Rossiu, Kamina, Nia, Yoko-san, Kuro no Kyodai, Gimmy, Darry and even Leeron! Tengen Toppen Gurren Lagann is STRONGLY RECOMMENDED. For someone who doesn't even watch animes that often, my recommendation means a lot. XD And oh did I add, fantastic artwork too? ;p



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